I think you may have forgotten this. You truly can do anything that you set your mind to. Think of all the obstacles that you have encountered in your life and how you prayed for perseverance. You persevered because you leaned into your faith and would not accept defeat. Life has it's way of challenging us ... especially with the things we hold near and dear. It's these test that make you stronger and remind you of the real passion you hold inside. As you read this, think of all of your accomplishments and WRITE THEM DOWN so that you don't forget. You may need the reminder in week, month, or few days...lol. You have everything you need inside of you to accomplish our dreams and goals. Whatever is in your heart, don't abandon it. Pray for guidance and clarity and take one step at a time until you get there, but don't ever give up.